I wonder sometimes if there will ever be a day when I’ll feel comfortable walking in Tala? Not feeling all (ok maybe not all but most) eyes on me. Will I ever feel secure and safe in my new hometown? Double guessing why our watchman follows me so closely when I walk into a store. Wondering if the day will come when I can go into Tala on my own…and enjoy it.
It’s a strange place to be in the cradle of fear and I wish I could just talk myself out of it, but no it doesn’t work that way. One thing I need to do is run to my Heavenly Daddy when those feelings crop up. Why do I let my emotions run wild, if even for a few crazy moments where my anxiety ramps up to unknown heights? Instead of running straight into the arms of my loving Father who loves me, protects me, cares for me and covers me with mercy and peace.
The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name’s sake.Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death, [or downtown Tala!]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me. Psalm 23:1-4
He’s rescued me before and I’m sure I’ll have to learn and relearn this lesson but with the Great Shepherd by my side.