Do you ever get the feeling you just aren’t wanted? Needed? Accepted? This post could go on and on ranting and raving about corrupt government officials, unappreciative parents, greedy shop owners, dishonest people, entitlement-attitude teens but each time I’m faced with feeling unwanted, unneeded, unaccepted I remember the reason I’m here…plain and simple it’s because my God, Lord and Savior asked me to be here. And I’m learning that just because God has called me here doesn’t mean I have to love the circumstances of where I’m living but it does mean loving through the circumstances of where I’m living. I honestly don’t believe Paul loved being in prison, but I believe he loved being in prison because God was with him there.
God is here with me and continually teaches me more and more about myself which in turn helps me to know Him on a deeper level. Ever get that feeling?
When my students don’t seem to get anything I’m teaching them and seem to be worse people than when I started teaching them, I feel useless. But God called me to teach those punks regardless of how they seem (or don’t seem) to progress. We’re called to be obedient, even if we can’t see the point 🙂