Seems my blogs go back and forth like the wind. One day I’m selfish, greedy and just plain human and the next I’m beaten down in such a way I’ve never felt closer to God. Some days I completely understand Peter’s response when Jesus says to put the nets back into the water and try again (Luke 5). Peter responds that they’ve tried all night to no avail.
My prayer is that even when I’m tempted to say (and yes even say it out loud to God) “Lord I can’t do it, I’m too frustrated, it’s no use, why bother” that my final response will be the same as Peter’s, “because You say so” I’ll continue on.