It seems funding is always an issue with ministry – I know and trust God is in control and meets the needs, but sometimes from a human standpoint it can be frustrating – not enough funds to do what we think needs to be done such as paying salaries for the teachers this month or paying the doctor bill – uggh why can’t we do both!? And that’s when God hits me with a church service like last Sunday’s.
I listened to the message and kept saying – “ok, thank you Lord for the reminder!” But bitterness can build up when we feel someone or some situation has taken something away from us or attacked an idol (something I need/can’t live without). What was being attacked? My sense of doing what I felt God called me to do – why don’t I have the funds to do it all? Yes feeding kids is a good thing but it can not be my idol – “You shall have no other gods before me.” (Exodus 20:3) God knows the big picture and what’s in my and the kids’ best interest.
During times of frustration instead of letting bitterness build up and taking my focus away from God I must place my identity and faith back in Jesus Christ, asking for His will be done – “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!” (Mark 9:24) And, by the power of the Holy Spirit, not defecting (defined by our pastor as wanting to serve Jesus but become easily disillusioned or deceived by the pressures and pleasures of life.) from God allows me and others the opportunity to see God’s glory shine right in the middle of it.