Today I was listening to random music on my iPod and Superchick came on with their song Suddenly (lyrics are at the end of this post).  I’ve heard it before but today I really listened to the words and realized how close it hit home for me over the past 2 years.  “She wonders if she’s where she’s supposed to be“, is a question I’ve asked myself several times and not so suddenly but over time God continues to affirm I am where I’m supposed to be.  I know I’ll still have days (weeks? months?) when I’ll ask that question over and over but I know God will continue to love me even through my questions.

“Scared of what she might lose if she moves away from who she was“.   God is stripping away the layers of selfishness, dependency and comforts of this life and relayering me with the fruits of the Holy Spirit.  I’m still such a complete mess but “skies will clear and the light will find her where she’s always been”…wrapped in God’s loving arms.

Lyrics to Superchick’s Suddenly song:

She feels lost in her own life
Treading water just to keep from slipping under
And she wonders if she’s where she’s supposed to be
Tired of trying to do it right
Her dreams are just too far away to see how steps she’s making
Might be taking her to who she’ll be

Chorus:
And suddenly it isn’t what it used to be
And after all this time it worked out just fine
And suddenly I am where I’m supposed to be
And after all the tears I was supposed to be here

She feels locked in her own life
Scared of what she might lose if she moves away from who she was
And she’s afraid of being free
There’s a way she knows is right
She can’t feel the things she knows
And so each step she’s taking is a step of faith toward who she’ll be

Chorus

And here where the night is darkest black
She feels the fear and the light is farthest back
And through her tears she can’t see the dawn is coming
Skies will clear and the light will find her where she’s always been.

Chorus