I’ve struggled with desiring techie stuff most of my adult life. I freely admit I like the newest items in the technological field, whether that be phones, eReaders, computers, software or hardware. You would think living in a developing country those things wouldn’t be an issue, but it is (for me).
When I’m tempted to covet another item of technology I ask myself “how selfish can I be?” There are people literally dying all around me and I am drooling over the newest Galaxy Tab or iPad (leaning towards the Samsung Galaxy Tab 2 10.1). Now here’s the raw, honest truth….sometimes I even think, I’m here and have given up so much to be here, why can’t I look at the newest tablet? It’s the same with running water, I get frustrated (we’ve not had running water for about a week now) but I know firsthand there are people all over the world, our next door neighbor for one, who do not have running water and have to fetch water from various locations (some not so sanitary). Lord forgive me those times and thank you for not striking me with lightening. I know Christ has “given up” more than I can imagine for me and I’m not even as cool looking as a Galaxy Tab or iPad!
By no means am I finished fighting this selfishness but when I catch glimpses of a less selfish me from time to time it reminds me God hasn’t given up on me, He is still working in my life. (I’m also not stupid….I would never refuse a generous gift!)
God knows my selfish nature and He knows I continue to struggle with it, but as I said before, He hasn’t given up on me.