I’ve decided to tell the voices in my head to just shut up! Ok, maybe I should say voice…mine in particular.
It does no good to be angry about how this government treats its citizens (displaced persons from 2007 are still living in tents, one family says they are sharing one toilet with 43 families) or the teachers/government over this strike (teachers want 300% raise, government wants to give them 400/ksh, approx. $5, for the year and the students are the ones being hurt by this non-negotiation fiasco) or hearing a government official say making approx. $20,000 PER MONTH is “peanuts” (no wonder the teachers want more!) or wondering if there is ANY government agency who really cares about the people or are they all simply in it for themselves?
Telling myself to just wait for God to move us up to C4KK, stewing about the commute, etc. does absolutely no good.
Being bummed because my Nook has stopped working and wishing for some sort of replacement again, does absolutely no good. Plus the fact I feel totally selfish and greedy for this to even be a thought in my mind.
So you see, I’ve come to the point of telling myself to shut up about all that. Granted I may have those voices raise up in the future but for now I’m moving ahead with where I’m at…attempting to live by the words of St. Therese of Lisieux:
“I feel that my mission is about to begin, my mission of making others love God as I love Him, my mission of teaching my little way to souls. If God answers my requests, my heaven will be spent on earth up until the end of the world. Yes, I want to spend my heaven doing good on earth.”
Help me to replace anger with gratitude. Let me surrender my life to Your gentle instruction. Let me seek no further answers. Let Your soft embrace surround my heart and comfort me. Now my way is easy as I walk with You in Love. (A Vocation of Love, Reflections on the Life of St. Therese of Lisieux)
Funny, it’s a bit quieter now 🙂